I started a journey in July 2006 to lose half of myself. Before this decision, I was literally eating myself to death. After a long conversation with my fiance Lance (whom is now my ex), concern was brought to my attention that I could not ignore any longer. He was afraid of losing me “like this”. I was afraid for my own health as well.
Complications involved:
- Sever acid reflux
- Sleep Apnea
- Pre Type 2 Diabetes
- Hypertension (super high blood pressure)
- Vomiting (from over eating)
- Depression
- Social Anxiety
- Back Ache
- Headaches
- Sore Knees
You name it, I had it. Life was horrible.
Starting weight at 294 pounds on a 5’4.5 framed body. It took me nearly all of my life to creep up to that weight.
As a teenager growing up, I was faced with many challenges that most teens do not have to go through. A father’s illness: Being diagnosed with manic depressive bi polar schizophrenia (crazy experiences here), my Grandmothers passing (typical): Died of smoke related complications, parents divorce, dropping out of high school, mothers sexually abusive boyfriend, I’ve been through it all.
Food became my comfort. My hugs from the inside, and I let it take my life. I was one of the few children in my circle that did not turn to drugs as a teen. Instead I comforted myself with food.
I am here to break the cycle as my mother is obese as well. Food is a learned behavior. Something we must manage carefully. Our bodies are machines. The only machines we have. Maintenance and fuel we provide it with are vital for it to run properly. It’s all mental. All we are as humans are mental.
So watch me shrink as I am determined to lose half of myself. Surgery will be done when all is done. I just want to be fit and healthy, proud of my body, and live life to the fullest.
Current Weight: I am now maintaining my 120 pound body, and even grew 1/2 an inch bringing me from 5 4.5″ to 5’5″. My jean size went from a 26W to a 2W (ironically a 25″ waist). I was wearing a size 9.5 in shoes, and now wear an 8. My ring size 9.5 is now a 5.5. A lot of things shrink with a little bit of calorie counting and patience. 
I am preparing for my journey to get my full body lift which will involve:
Breast lift
Arm Lift
Lower Body Lift
Breast Implants (optional)
Inner/Outter Thigh Lift
Hello you are truly an inspiration, to me and a whole lot more people. I have started my journey, and this time i am determined to succeed this time. I started out at 268, and so far am down to 254, and I too have alot of health problems like diabetes,high bp,sleep apnea,gout,back problems,kidney failure,allergies,angioedema,among other problems, and i know losing weight will help save my life, and i want to be there for my 4 children, and my husband. I hope to hear from you, and wish you the best on your journey. Robbie
Hey,
I am not sure how I stumbled upon your site, but you are awesome!! Way to go. I can’t believe how hard you must have worked to loose all the weight. I have always been a skinny girl and I even get anxious about food sometimes, so that may be just a girl living in our weight obsessed society kind of thing. I wish you all the best and again, well done!
Cheers,
Alie
I think your amazing and am so inspired after reading thru your blog
Sharon
-xox-
i was just thinking… if you updated your blog every day or every other day or something you could have tons of visitors
…in which case you could put ads on your website (more hits = more money per ad) to earn some extra cash for your body lift!!
I was looking for an online weight watchers food points tracker and I found your site and it lit a fire under my draggin butt! I am so proud of you for being able to free yourself from fat jail (that is what i call where I am) I have made myself sick of food, and even more sick of my addiction to it. I was floored to hear of how your ex treated you (from the post i saw on the site i found you on, dont ask me what it was) and I rejoyced with you seeing your strengh to push through the pain. I also have been gaining and losing weight my whole life. To say that I am at my wits end is the understatement of the year! I restarted my journey this morning (2/16/10). I am doing the plan that worked for me (weight watchers). I wont get cocky, i wont give in to my weak days, but most of all i wont stop, because if i do I will die.
God set your blog to me today. I dont know if you believe that, but I know it to be true.
Thanks for sharing and being so open with the world about your journey.
I am changed for learning about u.
Forever grateful,
Dionne